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okay. so honestly, i feel so apprehensive. i think that everyone has something against me, right now. like even my own family. and i know i shouldn't be thinking like that because i know they really do care. but it just hurts.i just want a gratitude for the things i do. but, you know, it could be that im just selfish. and i want too much for myself. and im just too sensitive. maybe its that i want the whole damn world, and its just too big and its all coming around on my fat ass. oh! and maybe this blog too is just showing how selfish i can be. what a fucking attention seeker i am.

or maybe, i just have a problem and i should go get myself checked. like i have slight depression or im bipolar. that i should fix this problem of blowing up over the smallest things. im so confused. sometimes i really do hate myself for being the way i am.